Physically?
I’m honestly shocked at how fast I’m healing.
Incision is barely visible, no pain, core already feels solid again. Most guys are still babying themselves at this point, meanwhile I’m walking around like nothing happened
Credit where it’s due: BPC-157 + Mot-C (myostatin inhibitor) were absolute game-changers.
Why they worked so well:
• BPC-157 floods the injury site, ramps up angiogenesis, accelerates tendon-to-bone healing, and down-regulates inflammation without slowing repair. Gastric peptide turned systemic superhero.
• Mot-C crushed local myostatin expression in the abdominal wall, letting satellite cells and fibroblasts proliferate like crazy while I was forced to “rest.”
Translation: I preserved (and even grew) muscle in my core while the mesh was integrating. Zero atrophy.
Docs told me 8–12 weeks before light training. I’ll be back squatting and deadlifting in under 7. That’s not ego—that’s pharmacology meeting discipline.
Now the part nobody talks about… the mental side.
For the first time in 25+ years, I’ve been living like a “normal” person.
No gym. No heavy iron. No endorphin armor.
Just work, family, food… and watching everyone else train while I sit on the sidelines.
It’s depressing as hell.
I catch myself staring at people differently now—judging the ones who skip sessions, who half-ass their sets, who complain about being “tired.”
I used to have empathy. Now I’m thinking:
“You have a healthy body and you’re wasting it. Do you even understand what a privilege that is?”
Being forcibly detrained strips away the identity you’ve built in the gym. You feel small. Soft. Mortal.
The mirror lies to you every day, and there’s nothing you can do about it except wait.
That feeling?
I never want to feel it again.
And I promise you, when I’m cleared, I’m coming back meaner, hungrier, and more grateful than ever.
To everyone recovering from surgery or injury right now:
Your body can heal faster than they tell you.
Your mind will try to break first, don’t let it.
Stack the right tools. Stay patient.
The iron will still be there when you return… and it’s gonna feel like coming home.
At the moment...Still closed for repairs… reopening stronger than ever.
Coach Jay
